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Monday, May 31, 2010

Blood Test

Malam tadi adalah malam yang agak panic jugak lah untuk aku. Tak tahu kenapa tiba2 time tengah tengok family outing, kepala aku tiba2 rasa berpusing rasa macam ter "snap" macam tu. Lebih kurang lah. Rasa macam nak pitam tapi tak pitam pasal aku tengah duduk time. Mula2 aku rileks laa ingat takde apa. Lepas tuh, tiba2 rasa macam tangan kanan aku rasa lemah and aku dah start rasa panik. Aku pun memang dah tak leh duduk diam dah time tuh. Ke depan, lepas tuh jalan pergi belakang pulak. Last2 aku pergi kejut mak aku. Cakap aku rasa tak sedap. Rasa semacam jer. Mak aku suruh lah aku baca2 sikit. Baca ayat kursi semua. Aku pun baca lah tapi masih tak regain ketengangan. Lepas agak lama still tak tenang, aku pergi cari kakak aku pulak. Cakap kat dia yang aku rasa cam tak best. And pastuh, at last, aku kejut ayah aku pulak. Cakap kat dia apa yang aku rasa sekarang. Memula ayah aku pun suruh baca2 semua. Tapi still pasal aku dalam state of panicking, ayah aku ajak lah aku pergi hospital. Memula try nak pergi kat klinik Ludher and Bhullar sebab ingatkan dia still bukak 24 jam. Tapi tengok, dah tak 24hours dah. Pastu ayah aku cakap kita pergi hospital assunta lah, lagi senang. Pasal pikir macam nak pergi PPUM tapi takut ramai orang.

Pergi assunta, doktor yang bertugas time tuh rupa macam baru bangun tido. Serious mata dia merah haha. Pastu aku cakap lah apa yang jadik. And dia suspect aku kena minor stroke. Suspect je lah. Dia kata tunggu esok lah, jumpa doktor pakar tanya pendapat. So that night dia hanya bagi panadol sahaja pasal dia kata aku macam ada demam sikit.

Esok nya, which is today, aku pun pergi lah jumpa doktor pakar. Datang dalam pukul 10.30 camtuh pasal appointment pukul 11.30 tapi dapat jumpa doktor dalam pukul 12.30 lebih kurang. Pasal assunta ni dia amalkan service first come first serve. Tunggu punya tuggu akhirnya nama aku kena panggil. Doktor tu nama dia Datuk Dr. Raihanah. Aku cam dah cuak pasal muka cam garang. Tapi dia baik sebenarnya. Dia pun buat lah certain test untuk aku. You know, like the one that the doctor made for Aya in 1 liter of tears. Lebih kurang macam tu lah pasal dia ada kaitan dengan saraf. Bila buat semua test, semua doktor kata ok, no problem. Pastu dia tanya lah macam2 kat aku. Aku pernah makan apa ke, allergic apa ke. Sumthing like dat. Last2 dia kata buat blood test lah pasal ni first time aku kena. Dia kata kalau blood test kata semua ok, takyah datang dah pasni. So next week on monday, amek result blood test aku.

So kesimpulannya, tadi aku pergi buat lah blood test buat pertama kali nya dalam hidup aku. Dulu kecik2 pernah kot, tapi needle tak se huge sekarang ni. Aku memula memang cuak lah. Pasal ye lah, jarum kott. tapi bila fikir balik, apa barang jarum kecik kat tangan. Kat mulut ni lagi berpuluh kali jugak lah kena cucuk jarum. Cuak sikit lah pasal ni first time jugak since braces dulu. Bila nurse tuh cucuk kat tangan aku, aku memang tak pandang ah! Serius cuak. Tapi sebenarnya tak sakit pun. Rasa cam kena geget kerengga jer hehe. Tapi tu lah, amek darah ni buat aku rasa ting tong hari ni. Rasa macam terawang2 itu. Tak biasa kut. 2 tabung kot dia amek.

Anyway, blood test dia consist of :

1) Calcium
2) Erythrocyte Sedimentation Rate (ESR)
3) Full Blood Count (FBC)
4) Glucose fasting/Random
5) Inorganic Phosphate
6) Liver Function Test Screen LFT (P1)
7) Renal Function Test C

Semua yang ada kaitan dengan diet aku dari apa yang aku agak lahh. Adess.

Close up time masih ada plaster

Tu diaaa. Kena cucok tuhh

Tak nampak sangat. Tapi merah ler tangan aku.

Senarai test

Bill. Memang mahal ler. Kata swasta.

Hopefully memang takde apa lah. Pasal doktor cakap semua ok sebenarnya. Cuma blood test tuh setakat nak pastikan sahaja. Pray for me guys!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Aku rindu

Aku rindu nak study
Aku rindu nak pergi kelas tutorial malam2
Aku rindu nak stay up untuk discussion sampai subuh
Aku rindu nak pergi kelas hari2 lepas tu lunch sama2
Aku rindu nak bergosip 2-3 jam time makan sampai kering nasik kat tangan
Aku rindu dengan hidup yang sibuk and bertujuan
Aku rindu nak lepak dengan kawan2
Aku rindu nak sepahkan compartment sendiri (kat rumah kalau sepah kena marah)
Aku rindu nak bebas berjalan kat luar anytime aku suka
Aku rindu MEREKA!
















Okay, serious rindu. Cepat lah habis cuti =(

Kekeliruan tanda-tanda kematian 100 hari perlu diperbetulkan

Dah berapa hari aku asyik kaji benda ni je. Google-ing kat internet sana sini try to find new information about it. Akhirnya, aku temui jawapan kat sini:




Kesimpulan yang aku dapat, benda tu semua mengarut je sebab dalil pun tak sahih, bukti pun tak ada. Kematian sepatutnya diingat 24 jam setiap hari. Bukan beringat bila konon dah dapat tanda je. Betul jugak kata2 diorang ni, kalau dah ada "tanda", nanti semua orang tunggu tanda baru nak beribadat, baru nak bertaubat. Kalau betul pun ada, mungkit firasat semata yang Allah kurniakan kat siapa dia kehendaki. Bukannya tanda2 jelas seperti ini. Kalau adanya konon2 "tanda2" ni, maka rahsia kematian yang terletak di tangan Allah, bukan lagi rahsia.

Merata2 aku jumpa posting pasal tanda2 ni dan mostly mereka semua percaya tanpa siasat terlebih dahulu. Aku pun hampir2 jugak lah nak percaya tapi perasaan ragu2 lebih menebal.

Bila kita ada kekeliruan, sepatutnya rujuk pada mereka yang lebih berilmu, bukannya membuat kesimpulan sendiri. Bila dah start buat kesimpulan sendiri, itu yang berguru dengan syaitan tu. Aku sebenarnya dah lama nak cari pendapat dari mereka yang lebih arif. Try cari merata2 tak jumpa. At last jumpa jugak kat forum ni. Wallahua'lam bissawab~

Sesungguhnya akal itu sepatutnya digunakan untuk berfikir~

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Jpop, Kpop

Recently ni aku dah makin gila dengan lagu2 korea balik. Dulu aku pernah gila jugak laa tapi lasted only for awhile jer. Time tu aku sangat gila dengan Big Bang and memang hafal lah semua lirik lagu2 diorang. Pastu minat aku kat Big Bang berkurang sikit2. Pasal takde siapa nak layan Big Bang dengan aku. Semua orang time tuh goes for group yang memang dah pegang nama macam DBSK dengan Super Junior. And lately ni, the hype on Big Bang naik semula semata2 Family Outing hehe


Compare lagu Jepun and lagu Korea, bagi aku lagu Jepun lagi senang kalau nak karaoke. Tak tahu lah bagi korang, tapi mungkin lah aku dah biasa dengan Bahasa Jepun, tu yang buat aku lagi senang nak sebut perkataan Jepun berbanding Korea. Ye laa, start tengok drama Jepun pun bila, timing cerita Long Vacation dulu dah start keluar kat tv Malaysia. Tak ingat tahun bila tapi sebab citer keluar tahun 1996, so aku agak around tahun 1998 atau 1999 camtuh jugak laa. Or maybe earlier. Entah laa, gila lama dah kut. Lebih sepuluh tahun dah.

Kalau nak buat comparison antara lagu Jepun and Korea, bila dah di romanize kan, lagi senang nak nyanyi bahasa Jepun bagi pendapat aku. Contohnya, aku ambik lagu Ayaka, "I believe". Ayaka is one of my favourite Japanese singer. And dia kawen dengan pelakon hensem dan comel; Hiro Mizushima.




Ayaka "Okaeri"

Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Mata heiki no furi wo shite
Kanashimi no iro wo nuritsubushite
Waratte shimaun desu
Shinjiru koto no taisetsusa
Wakatteru no ni iza to iu toki
Utagatte shimau yeah

Karappo no karada
Nagareru toki ni
Fuiteshimaisou ni naru kedo
Anata no koto dakishimetai
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I'm home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou
Sweet home

Jibun no koto bakkari wo
Kangaeru otona wa zuruin da to
Omotteitan desu
Demo hisshi ni kaeru koto wo
Sakenderu hito mo iru'n da
Yatto shitta'n desu

Atarimae no shiawase nanka
Kono sekai ni hitotsu mo nai
Anata no tame, sou omoeta
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I'm home
Supiido ga kasokushiteku mainichi
Okaeri sweet home
Kawaranai zutto aru keshiki
Sweet home

Sagashite nakushita
Kokoro no kizu ga
Tachimukau tsuyosa ni kawareta no wa
"okaeri" ga atta kara

Okaeri I´m home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Okaeri I'm home
Daijoubu anata ga iru kara
Okaeri sweet home
Mattete ne mou sugu tsuku kara
Sweet home
Oh yeah
Okaeri…sweet home

And in comparison, lagu Korea, Lee Hyori "U Go Girl"




Ya'LL Know What This Is!
Yeah! It's The Princess Lee-Hyo-Ri
She's Back! Yeah! Two Double-O Eight!
Be Ready! Hey Girl!
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl
De Le De Le That That That Girl
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl

Say What!

O neur eun tto eo tteon os eur ib eo ya hil ji
Meo ri neun tto eo tteoh ge man jyeo ya joh eul ji
I geon eo tteo ni tto jeo geon eo tteo ni go min ho min ha ji ma girl
O neur eun tto eo teon mar eur hae ya ha neun ji eo tteoh ge nae mam eur jeon hae ya joh eun ji
I geon eo tteo ni tto heo geon eo tteo ni go min go mmin ha ji ma

Girl Hey U-Go-Girl De Le De Le That That That Girl

Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl

(Girl) I je bu teo sol jik hage (girl) I je bu teo dang dang hae ge
Neo ui mam eur bo yeo jwo ba ro I sun gan ji geum I sun gan Tonight
(Girl) ga kkeum ssig eun dal kom ha ge (girl) ga kkeun ssig eun gang ryeol ha ge
Neo ui mam eur bo yeo jwo ba ro I sun gan ji geum I sun game tonight

Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl

De Le De Le That That That Girl

Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl

U-HA! o neur eun tto eo jjeon il lo na reur bu reu ji hok si na tto mu seun ir I saeng gin geon ji
I geor eo jjeo ji jeo geor eo jjeo go min go min ha ji ma Girl
Geu sa ram do joh a hal kka ma eum jor I myeo
Jue meo ni sog jag eun dong jeon ha na kkeo nae seo
Ap myeon I na ol ji dwit myeon I na ol ji go min go min ha ji ma Girl

Girl Hey U-Go-Girl De Le De Le That That That Girl

Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl

(Girl I je bu teo sol jik ha ge (girl) I je bu teo dang dang ha ge
Neo ui mam eur bo yeo jwo ba ro I sun gan ji geum I sun gan tonight
(Girl) ga kkeum ssig eun dal kom ha ge(girl) ga kkeum ssig eun gang ryeol ha ge
Neo ui mam eur bo yeo jwo ba ro I sun gan ji geum I sun gan Tonight

~ PHONE THING ~
Ay Hyori!
What's Up?
What you been doin'?
Why?
Lets roll baby
Um, okay.

~dance~

Crazy Night! Dance All Night!
Let Me Take U Home Tonight!
It's All Right! Hey Girl Party Tonight! (Party Tonight! )
Crazy Night! Dance All Night!
Let Me Take U Home Tonight!
It's All Right! Hey Girl Party Tonight! (Party Tonight! )
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl
De Le De Le That That That Girl
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl
De Le De Le That That That Girl
Girl Girl Hey U-Go-Girl Baby Baby Baby Baby Girl
I Like That That That Girl & Let Me SeeYa
Bring It Back Back Back Girl (OK! )
I Like That That That Girl & Let Me SeeYa
Bring It Back Back Back Girl (One More Time Baby! )
I Like That That That Girl & Let Me SeeYa
Bring It Back Back Back Girl (OK! )
I Like That That That Girl & Let Me SeeYa
Bring It Back Back Back Girl (Girl! )


Ohh, bagi aku memang sangat susah nak pronounce perkataan2 Korea. Serius, sebijik2 susah nak ikut. Atleast kalau lagu Jepun, aku mampu jugak nak ikut semua sekali. Tapi, still, ada jugak lagu Jepun yang susah nak ikut bagi aku. Lepas praktis banyak kali, baru boleh hehe. Contohnya lagu Mr. Children, Hanabi. Ni lagu tema citer Code Blue season 1 and 2. Mr. Children pun favourite aku jugak. Otai kat Jepun huhu




Mr. Children "Hanabi"

ku ga ima kiterukono sekai
subetega muimi datte omoe ru
chotto tsukare tennokana

teniire tamon hikikae nishite
kirisute ta
ikutsumono kagayaki
ichiichi urei deireruhodo
heiwa na yononaka janai

ittaidonna risou wo egai taraii ?
donna kibou wo daki susun daraii ?
kotae youmonaisono toi kake wa
nichijou ni noma rete

kun gaitaranante iu kana ?
( kurai ) to chakashi te warau nokana ?
sonoyawarakana egao ni furete
kono yuuutsu ga fuki ton daraiinoni

kesshite tsukama erukotono dekina i
hanabi noyouna hikari datoshitatte
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
bokuha kono te wo nobashi tai

daremo mina kanashimi wo dai teru
dakedo suteki na ashita wo negatte ru
okubyou kaze ni fuka rete
namikaze ga tatta sekai wo
doredake aisu rukotogadekirudarou

kangae sugite kotoba ni tsuma ru
jibun no bukiyou saga kirai
demo myouni kiyou ni furu mau
jibun gasore ijou ni kirai

waratte itemo nai te sugo shitemo
byoudou ni toki ha nagare
mirai ga bokura wo yon deiru
sono koe ha ima kun nimo kiko eteimasuka ?

( sayonara ) tte kotae wo kiku kotowo
saisho kara waka tteitatoshitatte
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
nando demo kun ni ai tai

meguri ae takotodekonnani

sekai ga utsukushi ku mie runante
souzou saemoshiteinai
tanjun datte waratta
kun ni kokoro kara ( arigatou ) wo io u

todokoora naiyouni
yure te nagare te
suki tootte iru mizu noyouna kokoro dearetara

ai takunatta tokino fun made
sabishi kunatta tokino fun datte
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
kun wo tsuyoku yakitsuke tai

daremo ga mondai wo dae teiru
dakedo suteki na ashita wo negatte iru
okubyou kaze ni fuka rete
namikaze ga tatta sekai wo
doredake aisu rukotogadekirudarou
mou ikkai , mou ikkai
mou ikkai , mou ikkai

Kesimpulannya, bagi aku Lagu Jepun memang lagi senang nak nyanyi. And basically, bila dengar lagu tuh, aku tahu jugak laa secara general lagu tu pasal apa. Sebab aku paham jugak ayat2 kat dalam lagu tuh even belum baca translation dia lagi. Kalau Korea, serius tak tipu, sepatah haram jugak lah tak faham. Mungkin sebab aku memang tak minat bahasa Korea haha~

Neway, Jpop will forever be in my heart. Dah berapa tahun dah aku minat Jpop. Start tahun 2006 camtuh la lebih kurang. And range of artist aku minat kat Jpop memang lagi besar dari Kpop. Aku kenal most of the artist even Jrock sekali pun. I can name most of the artist jugak lah. Dari yang otai sampai yang muda2. Tak tertakluk kat boybands jer. Kalau Korea, aku memang melayan idol sahaja lah. Tak lebih.

Jpop forever wuhuu!

Ego with the siblings

Sometimes I do think that having some sort of ego while dealing with my siblings is okay. Well, you know, those kind of situation where we get into some kind of fight, well, simple fight, most of the time we don't really tolerate with the situation and keep holding on with our ego. Tak seorang pun nak mengalah bila bergaduh. Well, don't get me wrong here. Aku bukan kata aku tak nak mengalah langsung. It's just kadang2 sebab masing2 tak nak mengalah bila bergaduh tu yang jadi lebih menarik and lebih rapat kan hubungan silaturrahim. Macam lah pelik ayat ni, tapi showing off your real side in front of the siblings is what made it really special. Aku, bergaduh juga dengan adik-beradik. Terasa pun, selalu juga. Kutuk mereka pun pernah (wahaha, aku dah mintak maaf ekk). Tapi most of the time kalau dengan siblings, better amalkan forgive and forget. Mereka memang pun darah daging kita. I love them siblings, really =)

Friday, May 28, 2010

Salah faham hahaa

Pada petang yang agak santai, satu perbualan berlaku diantara aku dengan kakak keempat aku


Kakak aku : Boring laa lepas ni "assignment" dah tak ada
Aku : Ehh?? Apsal lak boring? BM kan ada projek (dengan muka gila konfiden)
Kakak aku : Hahh? Apa pulak kena mengena dengan BM?
Aku : Ye laa, abes tuh ko kata boring lepas ni assignment dah takde. Projek kan banyakkk (lagi sekali muka kofiden)
Kakak aku : Huk alohh, aku cakap boring laa lepas ni Simon (merujuk kepada Simon Cowell; American Idol) dah takde. Apsal lak tetiba cakap assignment pulak nie~
Aku : *terkesima* HAHAHA. Serius weh, aku dengar assignment, bukan Simon (cover malu).

p/s: pikir logik mana laa ada orang boring bila assignment takde. lagi suka ada laa hahaaa~

Perbualan kedua. Berlaku time uwan aku masih agi kat rumah aku. Sorry, bahaso nogori aku kong sket hehe.

Uwan : (menyoal pada kakak kedua) Ekau dah ado pakwe ko?
Kakak kedua : Belum lagi uwan. Ni, dia ni dah ada dah (tunjuk kat kakak ketiga aku)
Kakak ketiga : *sengih2 kerang busuk*
Uwan : Haa, dah ado pakwe tu, main elok2 tau
Kakak ketiga : O_o (burst into huge laugh but cover it after awhile). Ye laa uwann (layankan sahaja haha)

Dalam otak kakak aku time tuh dah fikir blue dah. Ye laa, uwan aku mana nak faham "main" tu apa. Dia maksud kan kalau dah ada pakwe tu, elok2 laa. Jangan buat bukan2 hahaa. Kita yang muda ni jer dok putar belit bahasa. Kesimpulannya, takyah laa nak blue sangat otak tu haha~

Anxiety Disorder

Lama dah nak buat post tajuk ni. Tapi tak terbuat-buat pasal malas. Aku tak reti lah nak hurai secara scientific pasal anxiety disorder ni tapi secara general nya dari apa yang aku paham, anxiety disorder ni sebenarnya "penyakit" (not sure penyakit ke tak) kerisauan yang melampau-lampau sampai mengganggu aktiviti seharian. Truthful nak kata, aku rasa aku memang mempunyai berciri-ciri sebegini.


Aku tak sure lah benda ni genetik ke apa tapi benda ni sebenarnya dah ada kat ayah aku jugak and even arwah atok aku sekali. Memang nampak ketara kat ayah aku sebenarnya. Dan aku antara anak dia yang nampaknya macam mewarisi benda ni jugak. Ayah aku lagi teruk time zaman dia kat universiti dulu. Siap makan ubat lagi. Benda ni memang mainan psikologi sebenarnya.

Kalau ada yang perasan lah kan, aku ni setiap kali nak exam jer, night before exam tu memang sangat2 susah nak tidur. Even aku rasa aku dah habis study and dah ready nak amek exam esok, aku still susah rasa nak tidur. Ni lah akibat dan kesan dari anxiety disorder ni, aku agak lah. Memang sangat susah nak tidur. Aku ingat lagi, time nak amek exam Discrete Mathematics dulu, memang tak leh tidur langsung, even aku try gila2. Aku start masuk tidur pukul 3 pagi, pukul 4 still tak tidur, pukul 5 kelip2 agi, sampai lah subuh. Serius memang takleh tidur sebab fikir pasal exam yang aku nak amek. Last2 lepas subuh aku tidur kejap; dalam 1 jam macam tuh, 8.30 pagi shoot terus pergi amek exam. Tapi alhamdulillah kepala tak ting tong. Rilek je walau mengantuk. Tengah hari pergi bersuka ria, terus hilang segala mengantuk dan penat hehe.

Pastu lagi satu contoh lah kan, aku lately ni makin sangat takut nak naik kereta yang dibawak dengan sangaaaat lah laju. I used not to be scared of speed. Dulu time kecik rilek jer. Tapi lately dah besar2 ni, makin takut nak naik kereta laju2 ni. Serius. Orang baru speed takat 110kmph pun aku dah start nak tutup mata kut. Lori lalu kat sebelah pun dah cuak. Bas yang laju gilos tuh apetah lagi.

And aku rasa lah kan, fobia angin yang aku ada tu pun berpunca dari benda ni jugak. Sebab aku sangat tak ingat bila la aku ada pengalaman buruk dengan angin. Sense of insecurity yang sangat tinggi buat aku tetiba ada fobia angin ni.

Oh, even bila parents aku nak pergi negeri2 lain sekali pun, aku memang terasa nak ikut jer. Aku memang risau yang melampau-lampau sebenarnya. Bila diorang pergi tanpa aku, memang aku akan fikir pasal diorang satu hari. Kalau aku ikut sekali, baru laa hati aku tenang sikit sebab nampak diorang depan mata aku, sound and safe. Itu yang aku kena cop anak manja tu. Pergi mana2 mesti nak ikut. Pastu mesti nak balik tiap2 minggu. Hati aku sangat tak tenang and senang kalau tak nampak parents depan mata.

And antara recent punya risau, pasal tanda kematian tu lah. Memang sekali aku dah risau, aku akan fikir, kadang2 berhari2, kadang2 berminggu. Hari ni pun dah cuak bila tadi ngam2 lepas asar, terasa macam betul2 pusat berdenyut time aku tengah baring flat. Urghh, memang cuak melampau. And kat blog lah tempat luah perasaan hehe.

Anyway don't take me as a freak. Aku tahu, anxiety disorder ni lebih kepada psikologi and also mainan syaitan. That's why most of the time I try to take control of myself. Let my self conscious took over over my sub-conscious part. Sentiasa beringat pada Allah. Benda takkan jadi tanpa izin Allah. Have faith in Him. Alhamdulillah takat ni takde lah teruk mana huhu.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Family Outing Season 1 - really drives me crazy


Currently been watching Family Outing Season 1. It's a Korean Variety Show and like seriously, I never ever realized that this show even exist before hehe. Got the whole set of videos from Aqilah Irina when I was still in UIA and if I was not mistaken, Aqilah got it from our dear friend, Shawn.

Ouh, seriously lah kan, watching the videos alone, all by myself, really driving me crazy. Citer ni superb lawak tak tipu. It's not the typical jokes yang selalu variety show buat, memang rasa lawak dia real punya. I was laughing really badly while watching this video sampai kena marah dengan mak aku oo. Serious semput kot tengok citer ni.

At first, I wasn't really into Korean boybands tapi lepas tengok benda ni, my eyes really go like this (O.O). Sh*t oh! Semua boleh tahan comel jugak. I don't really follow the sequence of the episodes at first cuz I was like looking for the episodes that featuring those famous artist that I know. Of coz lah at first aku kejar tengok G-Dragon or Ji Young punya episode dulu cuz I was (eh, currently laa) a huuuuge fan of Big Bang. And hey, one of my biggest reason nak tengok citer ni pun sebab ada Kang Dae Sung :) well, which is also from Big Bang. And ada jugak TOP and even Seungri; also from Big Bang. Tapi few awhile, start hunting for other artists yang aku familiar and by that time, aku encounter Tohoshinki or DBSK or TVXQ or what ever you guys wanna call them (huh! banyak sangat nama haha). Eeekk!!! Comel kot!! Baru sedar sekarang hehe. Oh, before this I thought this group was really an overrated group lah jugak kan. Never expect that they will do good in performances. Selalu sangat dengar nama diorang itu lah sebabnya. But one day while watching Music Station Super Live 2009; tertengok lah pulak performance diorang lagu Stand By U; well in Japanese lah. I was really moved by their voices. Oh my, sangat harmony kot (>.<)". Okay enough with the fangirling session, hope you guys don't puke while reading it hehe.

Out all of pairs dalam show tuh, I really love the Dumb and Dumber (Yoo Jaesuk, Kang Dae Suk) pair and also Hyori and Dae Sung pairing. The Dumb and Dumber pair, aiyohh, sangat funny laa the two of them ni. I was really laughing my ass off bila tengok diorang buat lawak. Memang pure punya lawak and they understand each other very much haha. You guys should see yourself part diorang kat dlm citer ni. Serious jadik lawak dia. And the reason why I really love bila Hyori dengan Dae Sung sebab mereka nampak sangat comel and sangat very sibling bersama! Suka everytime Dae Sung buat muka comel panggil Hyori "Noona" hehe.

Neway, lepas tengok citer ni even tak habis lagi marathon season, rasa memang serious best lah. Memang really feel the bond between them as a family. Aku siap nangis lagi part Sooro kena tipu yang Dae Sung kunun nak blah dari citer tu haha. Serious tak tipu, I was touched gila pasal Sooro gila tough tu pun boleh nangis kot.

Unfortunately, season 1 has already ended. Most of them said that it's because of the rating yang makin lama makin jatuh and also member2 lama semua has been retreating. And right now second season baru je start tapi dengan member yang lain. I'm not really looking forward to watch the new season. Pasal I really love the old family T_____T. Serious sedih bila tau (walaupun agak lambat aku tau haha) yang season 1 already ended. And the rating untuk current season sangat agak rendah la jugak. Sudah jatuh sampai single digit.

Untuk mereka yang sudah bosan, sila2 try tengok ini variety show. Sangat menarik okay. Mahu video, contact saya. haha~

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Will you still love me when I'm already old?


OMG! Gila ah menakutkan kut haha. Takpe, ape2 hal pun, manusia will age, no matter what. Takkan la muda selamanya, kan? (kata2 dari seorang yang selalu perasan awet muda haha) Fuhh, takleh blah betul outcome dia.
People, don't just laugh at it. Try it yourself! =D


Ini site boleh tukar your picture jadi lebih tua 20 tahun. Eeek! Ini bukan 20 tahun ni! Dah macam 60 pon ada haha.

Lelaki yang tak faham bahasa.

Walau dah beribu juta kali cakap pun, ada sesetengah lelaki macam tak paham yang perempuan tu memang tak nak kat dia. Even banyak kali si perempuan cakap that she's not available anymore pun, that guy still memang tak paham bahasa. Seriously lah, one tip yang guys kena take note, kalau betul perempuan tuh memang tak mahu, just putus asa je la. Cuz, in the end, you will hurt more, very much more. Sebab biasanya perempuan ni, if you guys hit on her and ada tindak balas, then the game is really on. Tapi kalau you hit on a girl and dia buat tak tahu or cuba nak mengelak, dinasihatkan tak payah lah teruskan niat. Memang perempuan tu tak nak kat awak lah tu. Tapi itulah, ada jugak sesetengah yang memang tak paham bahasa. Mungkin lah kalau bahasa isyarat tu memang susah nak paham tapi kalau dah betul2 straight forward perempuan tu cakap yang dia tak available anymore, pun still ada yang susah sangat nak faham. And in the end, even perempuan tu tak ada niat nak menyakiti, terpaksa juga sakitkan hati yang si lelaki ni. Let alone my own experiences, this one dah banyak kali dah nampak kat kawan2 aku sendiri. Adoi berapa kali cakap pun lelaki2 ni tak nak paham. And at last perempuan tu pun rasa meluat and terus tak nak tengok muka lelaki ni lagi.


Apa kata lah kan, kalau sekali kena reject, gi duduk jauh2 dulu, then lepas beberapa ketika, come back to that girl. Probably hati dia dah berubah time tuh. Jangan lah nak mengorat sampai perempuan tu naik menyampah. Then the chances will be downgraded until zero ler.

p/s: my own experiences, banyak gak la tapi, biarlah rahsia haha :)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Wedding at Concorde Hotel

Mona's friends dengan pengantin :)
The KAED girls (exclude 2 kat kanan. one engine and one ict hehe. mona the one in the middle yg pendek tuh haha)

Huishh,yesterday punye wedding which is mona faeqa's sister punye wedding memang meriah lah. Ramai kot encik2 menteri yang datang. I didn't expect that actually. Ingatkan biasa lah, tan sri, datok bla3. Itu dah common la mesti ada punya. Sekali bila tengok guests list dia, keluar nama2 menteri. And the funny part is (I think laa), places where they supposed to be seated, were determined by my friend yang sorang ni, cik mona and obviously sebenarnya mona tak kenal pun siapa menteri2 ni and don't know how to spell their name. Lawak la you ni monaaa haha. Actually she never cares pun pasal menteri2 ni. Her father is quite a famous architect so that's why laa dia ramai kenal menteri2 ni sume. Bila diorang semua beratur nak keluar salam and tangkap gambar dengan pengantin, the view was like barisan2 kabinet nak mesyuarat and I was like (o.O) hehe

Neway, yesterday punye wedding dia buat kat Concorde Hotel, Shah Alam. Kitorang pergi sana naik myvi that was drove by huda. 6 orang berhimpit satu kereta. Hehe, thanks Huda for bringing us there! Appreciate that a lot. Well, I think she is one of "rare" girls yg sangat suka speed kat jalan raya. Even kat jalan biasa pun she will speed up to 140km/h. One reminder, she's a girl. Agak jarang aku ecounter girls yang suka speed. Biasa nya boys yang suka speed sampai macam tu sekali. I was.. kinda scared sebenarnye. Cuz dia punya drift memang.. erkk, tak terkata. Takut pun ada gak laa.

Biasa kalau wedding kat hotel memang akan dapat gift chocolates. This time punya chocolates memang superb ah! Melts in my mouth kott. Gila mouth watery dibuatnya. Makan sampai tak terkata haha~ The wedding ends at around 11.30 and we arrived kat UIA in around 12.30. The end.

Boybands (Japanese, Korean) make me go crazy.

Kyaaa!!!! (>o<)"

Friday, May 21, 2010

Don't you just love the sound of the dried leaves

crunching up when you stepped on it?
Sounds veryyy crunchy and I just love it!
It's weird but every time I stumbled upon dried leaves
Just really can't resist to step on it and hear its crunchy sound
Haha weird me =]

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I am currently residing at mahallah asiah

and got my own compartment weehooo!
Padahal hanya laa sekadar menumpang atau kata kasarnya; squatting
Well, actually lah kan, before this dok tumpang bilik kakak aku kat aminah
And was planning to stay up till thursday je paling lame laa
tapi last minit punye tukar planning
pasal suddenly mona said yang kakak dia kahwin sabtu ni
dia dah lama ada intention nak invite aku
but because handphone aku buat hal
so dia tak pat contact aku, lama gak laa
sangat2 sorry mona faeqa ibrahim!!

neway, mahallah asiah and aminah is huuuge
aku lost berapa kali kat antara bangunan kot
well maybe aku memang kurang sense when it comes to find direction
=_="
and amat lah sangat freaky nak balik sorang2 time malam
sebab bangunan jarak2
you can actually see those things in around 100m from where you stand
so yes, what i really scared of is
to see kalau ada something melompat2 dengan laju
ohhh tidaaaak

oh, honestly lah kan
compared aminah to asiah lah kan
i loooove asiah very much like seriously
better asiah dari aminah
one whole compartment yg sangat comfortable
is all yours
lebih kurang macam hafsah lahh
tapi, seriously, aku rasa asiah memang selesa

ok, will update more later
mengantuk and it's already 3 in the morning =.="
nite!

Catching up with friends is rather hard for me

Sometimes, catching up with friends, well current and old friends is rather a hard thing for me to do actually.

Entah, kadang2 rasa pening kepala nak susun masa kasi cukup untuk sume orang @_@
Pasal aku ni actually bukan nya jenis orang yang pandai nak manage masa sangat
Itu pasal kadang2 aku lebih rela duduk rumah diam2 then buat hal sendiri depan laptop
Pasal aku cepat serabut bila dah ramai2 orang ajak keluar adehhh
Tapi,
aku cuba jugak fulfill, setakat mana mampu laa
First reason of course sebab I do really miss them
Second reason, kang tak sosial pulak aku tak bergaul ngan orang

Tapi still,
ada jugak laa some of the old friends yang pikir aku ni dah sombong
lupa kawan
mungkin laa. aku teka je
especially kawan2 dari zaman matrik melaka dengan cenfos
yang sangat laa kurang aku catching up with them
bukan maksud nak lupa diorang
pasal diorang jugak laa kawan susah senang aku dulu.
Tapi, aku memang macam ni
Aku memang tak reti
*Mungkin sebab dulu2 aku tak ramai kawan kot*
Itu laa bila da start ramai kawan
Nak manage time dengan kawan
Sangat susah bagi aku

So kawan2 sekarang ni
Kalau masa depan aku ter-neglect korang
Bukan maksud nak lupa kawan
Tapi
aku memang tak bermaksud apa2 T________T
aku memang tak reti
I'm sorry kay, guys?
I'm trying hard
trying to reconnect back the bond that had been loosing

Adoii laa Suhaila Roslan~

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Short of breath, gasping for air a lot lately while walking

Signs of aging?
No,
this shows that I haven't walk this much since the first day of holiday
Goshhh, need to move my ass off more =_="

p/s: sekali sekala bercuti kat uia best juga kan? =D

Friendship and memories

Recently I realised how fast people can change. From being rather just acquaintances, right now are already close friends. From just being best friends, right now have become more than just friends, rather said, soul mates ;) And not to forget, from a really close friends, already become so distanced and so far apart from each other just because of certain incidents. And even some have become foes towards each other.


This is how life really is. Things happen, people change, but life will still goes on. What really remain are the memories. The memories that have been made, together with the people that we love, and even with the people that we dislike. No matter how bitter or sweet the memories are, it will still be part of our life. It's just the way how we took it, positively or negatively.

Friends do come and go, like the birds, though it always has been that way, this friendship will forever remain in the heart, as memories :)

p/s: malam ini mood yang sangat indescribable. well, layankan aje ;)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Bajet diri bagus sangat?

Sometimes I just couldn't stand those people who think that they're super cool and freaking effing more cool than those people that they so called "orang kampung kolot". I might go into my emo mode again pffftt. Mereka yang konon2 sangat bandar ni dengan tak malunya melabel sesetengah orang Melayu, or even the religious people as orang2 kolot. Eh, sayang. Lupa ke, yang kau tu pun berdarah kampung? Kau duduk kat Hartamas ke, kat Bangsar ke, kat XXX ke, asalkan kau berdarah Melayu even sikit, don't even f*cking forget asal usul kau, don't even forget yang nenek moyang kau pun kampung jugakkan?


Geram baca sesetengah blog post yang begitu suka merendahkan orang Melayu. Malu nak mengaku Melayu. Mungkin lah kau tu dah campur macam2 darah, well you name it, tapi jangan lupa, part of your blood still ada jawa, minang (yes, aku minang hehe) and semua yang memang sangat Melayu. Malu sangat ke nak mengaku asal usul sendiri? Ok, fine kau rasa nak malu. Tak kisah. Suka hati lah. TAPI, never insult those people who don't deserve to be insulted. Cukuplah kau simpan rasa itu dalam hati, tak perlu dijaja-jaja kat public betapa kau nak hina kaum kau sendiri. Cukup lah, memang pedih bukan setakat mata, hati aku pun pedih baca. Some of you may call yourself the brainer, who has brain compared to these so called "kolot" people; but unfortunately, I bet you get less bless from God every day. Jangan nak bangga sangat lah you have the brain kalau sembahyang 5 waktu pun tak pernah nak cukup, rakaat untuk solat isyak pun tak tau berapa, partying like a b*tch, drinking alcohol macam air kosong. Sekolot2 atau sehina2 orang tu kat mata dunia, tak pernah dia nampak kolot atau hina kat mata Allah kalau dia mengikut perintah-Nya.

Ya Allah, jauhkan aku dari menjadi very close minded like these people. Amin.

p/s: kelakar bila baca ada orang ckp dgn begitu bangga that he or she will rot in hell. bangga sangat ke nak masuk neraka? heh?

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Life is so precious, so why some people don't appreciate it?

Been watching Japanese drama, "Code Blue Season 2" (Yamapi comel!!) these few days lately. Marathon the first season, then the special episodes, lepas tu start off with season 2 and right now currently kat episod 9. Compared to the first season, the second season is supeeeeeer sad. Many deaths, especially in the few earlier episodes. I cried all the way through the episodes. Sangat sedih okayyy. Kejam gila the script writer, no mercy at all :(

Yamapi comel, kanan sekali :D

Anyway, watching the drama really makes me think really deeply. The drama is really breath taking even if it sounds like another typical medical drama. Bunyi macam those type of drama yang those Americans buat, macam house md (oh i like this btw) ke, grey's anatomy something like that. Tapi it's different. What I really like about Japanese drama compared to other types of drama, like korean drama, diorang sentiasa ada selitkan mesej kat each of the episodes, never failed even once. Setiap episod buat kita terfikir and bukan tengok drama setakat nak buang masa jer.

Hidup ini precious sangat sebenar nya kan? Kadang2 kita take life for granted, sangat actually. Kalau kita diam dan fikir sejenak, sangat lah patut kita mengucapkan kata syukur pada Tuhan sebab kita masih mampu bernafas di bumi Allah ini, perfectly. Kita patut bersyukur yang kita masih mampu berjalan, kita boleh lagi berlari, and do every single thing yang kita minat and mampu buat kat bumi Allah ni.

Ada few episodes yang aku tengok kat dalam Code Blue, where the patient who used to be an active person, always involve in those kind of activities, but one day because of one simple accident, the used to be active person, were meant to be bedridden for the rest of his life. Well, I tried to imagine and put my self in his shoes, for awhile. How am I supposed to live my life, just on the bed, can't move at all, all day, for the rest of my life? Am I capable to deal with that kind of situation? Bila kakak aku patah kaki and terpaksa duduk kat rumah je for the whole 2 months pun dia rasa cam nak gila dah, apa lagi kalau kena bedridden, for the rest of the life? Just feels like you are alive tapi sebenarnya macam mayat hidup je. And will be a burden for your family. How sad is that? Oh, haven't mentioned lagi apa accident yang buat dia jadi camtuh. He was turned to be that way just because of one simple accident; terjun kat dalam sungai time tengah gembira dengan kawan2 and suddenly his head hit a rock. Hanya sebab tu saja, he was paralyzed.

That just one simple example. Banyak lagi sebenar nya but too many to be listed here. Watch the drama yourself for a better view :)

The above example is a fictional example, probably tak bagi kesan to some people. The yet next example yang aku nak bagi, is a true story. A very long time already found blog, sangat lama dah jumpa tapi baru sekarang nak cerita kat sini. Probably she is famous among the bloggers. For those who have watched one liter of tears, this blog yang aku posted kat bawah ni, is one example of the real version of one liter of tears. Online version pun mungkin lah.


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Bila aku first jumpa blog ni, aku rasa sangat kagum dengan beliau. She's already gone by the way. She got lung cancer and as far as I know, she doesn't smoke so the cancer sebenar nya lebih kepada penyakit warisan. Lama tak baca blog dia so was kinda blur sikit about the whole story, read it yourself and you will impress with how strong she was when dealing with the cancer.

Sedih sangat baca blog dia. Dia sangat tough just to deal with that horrible cancer. As far as I know, lung cancer is one of the cancer yang agak incurable. Though cancer lain pun kind of incurable, tapi lung cancer is far more worst sebab dia spread sangat cepat to other parts of the body.

Semangat dia sangat kuat. Compare to a person like me, kena ketumbit pun dah gila merengek kat blog haha. A person like me is so incomparable with her. Even dengan sakit macam tu pun, dia still act very cheerfully, as if dia tak sakit langsung. And satu ayat dia that shows how strong she is,

"I'm not a delicate little flower, I'm a superwoman"

Kisah sara aziz ni memang menginsafkan. Kalau you guys go through her blog, boleh baca jugak lah how she misses being an active person, how she misses to be an independent girl again and how she misses to live like a normal person. She was a photographer before, and some of her photos were featured internationally if I'm not mistaken. She used to an active person yang suka bergerak pergi sana sini with her camera. And she seriously missed to live like a student, being an architecture student. And missed to eat freely like a normal person. Being a lung cancer patient, banyak kena pantang, like seriously. And really missed all of that.

I am comparing myself and other people with her. She was not capable to do all of those things but she has the will, and she tried really hard. Kadang2 aku sibuk cakap aku gemuk and everything; and asyik mengelak nak makan buah2 (diet atkins hehe) but just by reading her blog, tengok lah, dia nak makan buah tapi buah is a huge NO NO for lung cancer. Aku yang still boleh makan buah without any problem ni, asyik nak mengelak dari makan jer.Dia ada tulis dalam blog dia yang she used to diet jugak tapi lepas dapat penyakit ni, dia menyesal sebab suka skip meals dulu. Sekarang, almost everything dia tak boleh makan. And dia rasa sangat sedih for loosing so many weights and also for loosing the body shape. I'm not saying yang kita patut makan sampai dapat obesiti pulak, I'm just saying, appreciate your appetite. Selagi boleh makan, makanlah BUT eat those food healthily. Jangan pergi bantai semua pulak.

And like how she misses her university life. Sesetengah budak sekarang memang tak tahu nak appreciate how healthy they are ek? Sara Aziz memang beria nak balik australia and sambung belajar and yet still ada setengah manusia yang tak tahu bersyukur, bukan jer taknak belajar, siap pergi merempit lagi, jadi bohsia pastu buang anak merata2. Disappointing? Yes, huge disappointment actually. People like Sara Aziz ni would trade like almost everything that they have, just to live a normal healthy life. And those people yang tak tahu bersyukur ni? Sparing their precious life kat somewhere yang sangat tak patut.

Appreciate your life. It is so short so live your life to the fullest. Jadikan lah hidup lebih bermakna, not just waste it on something not beneficial. Just try to think, fikir lah and compare la hidup kita dengan those unlucky people. Cuba lah jadi insan bersyukur. Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada and jangan nak merungut je kerja. Banyak lagi people who have far more worst life compare to you. Well, this is a kind reminder for you guys, and also for me :)