Honesty, in friendships

Watching gossip girl (had downloaded it a long time ago but only now have chance to watch so I am still at season one, bear with me haha) had made me think a little about how I was when I was still in the secondary school. Being surrounded and friended with all girls, isn't really a good thing, I guess. Backstabbing and bad talking about you, being done by your friends, even your own good friends, as you thought they are, is kind of... common I can say. Well, trust me, girls were born just to have a perfect two sided face. It's not my words, the world knows this common fact. I have been back stabbed and people have talked bad about me before too, well I guess it's fine. Cuz we're still young back then.

But that was a long time story. When you started to be more matured, you might think back, how foolish you are when you were still young. Though some people might still have those kind of mindset, it doesn't matter. You are adult enough to think what best for you.

As it says, honesty is the best policy.

p/s: being friends with the male friends had made me think too, loyalty is part of friendship, and so does honesty. they had teach me something new to learn about friendship :)

double p/s: hey, girls' friendship is just waaaay too complicated at times I guess. If there's a fight, just try to stay out of it, or you might be in trouble too. but anyway, I do value my friendship with them

Kisah masyarakat

Pernah dengar siapa2 yg dekat ngan korang... lahirkan anak luar nikah. Sorry, kalau ini isu sensitif. Tapi realiti, ni la yang banyak terjadi di kawasan2 kampung. Aku ckp bukan berdasarkan tekaan aku saje, berlandaskan fakta juga. Ini lah yang banyak terjadi dikampung aku. Dan tidak mahu juga aku nafikan, terjadi dekat saudara terdekat aku. Serius aku nak kata, tak boleh nak salahkan pasangan2 nie jugak. Korang sendiri patut tengok suasana di kampung tu sendiri. Remaja semua bergaul dengan begitu bebas. Tak ada sekatan pn. Ini dari apa yang aku dengar la.

Aku simpati jugak dengan sedara aku nie. Dak laki and umur dia tak jauh pn ngan aku. Jarak dalam 3 tahun camtu. Time sekolah dulu, dia nie jenis yg suka ponteng skolah, pegi smoking, lepak ngan kengkawan sume. Tp aku tak sure dia terlibat dengan dadah ke tak. Pernah jugak jadik kes polis sebab mencuri. And macam2 lagi yg dia dah buat. Sampai abes skolah, perangai masih x ubah2. Tak tau nak salahkan mak ngan ayah dia ke x. Bila da stat keja, perangai makin menjadi2. Hutang semua melambak2. Pinjam kat bank brape puluh ribu. And last2, someone pregnant sebab dia. Tapi, alhamdulillah jugak la. Dia nak jugak kawen ngan pompuan tuh. Still I respected him because of this. Tapi sure benda nie jadik buah mulut org kampung and bwk malu kat keluarga. Memula ayah dia tak bagi kawen. Tapi dia berkeras gak nak kawen. Last2 dia kawen tanpa ayah dia tau. And right now baby pn da lahir.

Aku mmg kesalkan dengan sikap diorang. Yelah, jiwa org muda la kan. Bila2 masa, tau nak seronok jer. Tanpa pikir kesan kemudian hari. Tapi ape yg lebih aku kesalkan, sikap org2 tua di sekeliling diorang. Mmg, aku tau diorang dah malukan keluarga, diorang dah buat benda salah. Tapi tak perlu la dipulaukan diorang. Tak perlu jugak asyik hamburkan kata sumpahan kat diorang. Org tua, sepatutnya dah nmpak diorang tu dah sesat, cubalah bawak diorang balik ke jalan yg betul. Bimbing balik diorang. Tolong lah diorang tuh, sebab diorang masih muda. Dari apa yg aku nmpak, mak ayah diorang cam sanggup nk jaga baby tu jer. Yg laki ngan pompuan tuh, diorang mcm x kesah sangat. Patut tolong la diorang sikit2, tolong diorang bangun semula. Biar diorang balik ke pangkal jalan. And tolong besarkan baby tu dengan cara baik. Cuba jangan biar baby tu jangan ikut jejak langkah mak ngan ayah dia.

Aku serius sgt risau dengan masa depan baby tuh. Aku pn hampir nangis bila tgk baby tuh and pikir ape laa nk jadi ngan masa depan dia. Dah laa anak luar nikah. Ape la status dia kat mata masyarakat nie. Baby tak berdosa langsung. Jgn lah sbb kesilapan ibu bapa, anak turut dihukum sekali.

Bukan mahu kata aku baik sgt, tp alhamdulillah, aku dilahirkan dlm keluarga yg mementingkan agama. Atleast cukup membimbing aku dari sesat. Alhamdulillah, aku tak terjebak dengan benda2 sebegini. Nasib baik, sedara aku nie x abandon pompuan tuh. Sebab dalam byk kes, perempuan yg selalu jadi mangsa. Habis madu sepah dibuang. Perempuan jangan biar diri diperkotak-katik. Tinggi sungguh maruhmu, wahai perempuan yang mulia. Jagalah diri. Sebab kebanyakan yg nampak hina kat mata masyarakat lepas jadi benda2 cam ni, selalu mmg la perempuan.

Things Guys need to know about Girls.

I stole this post from somewhere so don't sue me, okay. Just my thought of sharing.

p/s: To the guys, take note ya! Read line by line, carefully ;)

1. Be aware of all your girlfriends’ guy friends, brothers, fathers, or anything. They are protective. Every single male friend we have will kick your ass if you end up hurting her.

2. Never ever miss an opportunity to tell her that she’s beautiful. We girls love that.

3. If she slapped you hard, you probably deserved it.

4. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend — a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts or hoodie’s, and a really pretty piece of jewelry.

5. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you’re dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren’t dropping her off, call to be sure she’s home safely. We think that’s really cute and sweet.

6. If a guy is bothering your girlfriend, it is your right to beat the sh!t out of him.

7. If you’re talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer. It’ll make her feel secure that you love her more than the other girl.

8. Never ever slap her, even if it’s just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, “Oh, you’re so dumb” or something, never make any gestures back.

9. Memorize your girlfriend’s birthday. You forget her birthday and you’re basically screwed for life. Not gonna lie.

10. Remember: Girls are pretty, but yours is the Prettiest!

11. Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.

12. No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe. Don’t bother trying to convince us otherwise, that is a bad idea

13. It’s good to be sensitive, to a point.

14.If you did something wrong, apologize. Even if you didn’t, do it anyway.

15. We are self-conscious by nature; we can’t help it. Let it be.

16. Shave your face, no matter how cool you think your goatee or beard or mustache looks, we probably hate it. We like you clean shaven.

17. You are our boyfriend, our man, our protector, whether you know it or not, you are; act like it.

18. Most of the time when I fantasize, it’s about you. Don’t obsess over that.

19. I’m more forgiving of you than I really should be. Don’t you dare take advantage of that.

20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.

21. Any decent man will ask a girl out to her face. I mean; if you aren’t man enough to ask us out to our face, who says youre gonna be man enough to our boyfriend at all.

22. Girls are very impressed when you ask them for advice. Unless its about another girl.

23. I’m unimpressed with a man who doesn’t take the lead.

24. You’re sexy when you’re shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.

25. Girls need to hear how you feel about them. Often. Tell her now.

26. A girl wants to be the best thing that ever happened to you—and for you to recognize this and tell her.

27. If she’s not feeling loved, she will start looking….

28. We like it when you tell us what you’re thinking, even if you don’t know yourself. It’s cute.

29. For the record: I’d rather you break up with me than cheat.

30. You like her, make a move. Don’t just sit there, you will fail, and you won’t get her.

31. But don’t be obssessive. Major turn-off.

32. Call sometimes, just to say hi, not for a certain reason. When we see your number on caller ID, our heart always skips a beat. Try calling just to say good night, or good morning, its soo adorable!

33. If you catch us staring, it is most likely because we’re spacing out, not because we really stare at you. Unless we smile when you notice. Then you either look really hot, or we like you.

34.We like it when you hold us when we’re crying. It’s good to feel loved and safe.

35. Don’t tell us you love us unless you are positive you mean it. If we don’t say it back, it’s just that we really want to mean it when we say it. Don’t say it right away, then it shows lack of commitment.

36. We like it when you’re tender, but don’t lose your masculinity.

37. We LOVE it when you get nervous around us. It’s adorable! Don’t think you have to be Mr. Cool Guy all the time.

38. If you don’t call us, then we will spend hours thinking about why you never called, and we will waste a lot of time thinking about it, eventually coming to the conclusion that we don’t like you anymore.

39. We lost interest quickly if you lead us on but never take action.

40. We might seem to flirt a lot, but a girl always thinks about the one guy she really likes right before she falls asleep.

41. When a girl likes a guy, she subconsciously gives him a song that makes her think of him every time she hears it.

42. If we’re not talking to you, we secretly want you to talk to us first.

43. We get really happy when you show any sign of interest. Don’t just do it and then never do it again. Bad bad bad…

44. Keep up the conversation on IM and phones and in person! Don’t be awkward. That’s bad.

45. We will always feel bad if we don’t like you back. Not all girls are b!tches, no matter what you may think. We hate to reject you.

46. If we say “Let’s just be friends”, we really mean it. Don’t keep trying to pursue us, and don’t say ok and then ignore us. That’s just mean and horrible.

47. It’s adorable when a best guy friend who a girl has thought about liking confesses he likes her.

48. If you’re single, find the one girl who’s always there on the sidelines at your football game, or at each of your concerts, all your baseball games. She loves you. Her excuse may be that she’s there for her brother, but she’s really there for you.

49. In your mind, give every girl a chance. Each one deserves at least one.

50. Girls fantasize too, its just not always about sex.

51. We girls give you guys code names so that you don’t know that we’re talking about you. :]

52. If you’re jealous, it may suck for you, but we think it’s attractive if you really care that much.

53. If a girl blushes when you talk to her, she either likes you or she’s embarrassed by what you’re saying.

54. If a girl really likes you, just seeing you will make her day.

55. Every time you smile at us, it may mean only a little to you, but it means the world to us. Don’t take the little things for granted.

56. We don’t want to hear how hot girl on girl is. It’s uncalled for. If you wanna talk about it do it with your guy mates…not us.

The list that I've found is rather too looong to be posted here so I kinda cut it off. Some just aren't that important (at least in my opinion!) so just I just listed out what I think closest to me and my life. Hey, I do did some of the things that have been listed ;)

Growing old or matured?

I'm always being told by my girlfriends to grow old or to be more matured. Sometimes I'm not really sure what they mean by growing older. And how's the level of maturity is being measured. Probably because out of four of us, I'm the only one who is still single and currently I'm the only one who knows nothing about love. Heck, I'm a kind of good observer when it comes to the relationship between them and their partners but every time they ask me for my opinion, I just... can't answer. What to expect from me? Have none experience in love but still wanna ask opinion from me? I couldn't answer that much of course. And just because of that, always get the "Please grow up" statement from my dear girlfriends.

Haih, they will probably forever call me adik kecik, or adik comel. I have been hearing those words since ages.

"Eh, bila nk besar nie?"

My heart

I'm a good listener but serious am bad at conveying my own feelings.

And people just can't guess what lies within my heart.

I am mysterious as one of my colleagues said.

Am I was born to be like that?

Probably I just can't be that open when I talked to somebody.

But yeah, am happy to get the award of good listener =)

Just look into my heart and you will see the true me

Dreams

Dreams that are far from truth.

Will someone ever will, to grant my wish?

Little heart

Hurt me, hurt me not.

This little heart needs a little lots more of care

Dear blog!

Didn't realize that this blog already passed it's one year's birthday. Firstly started as a blog for IL and now it's my official blog.

So, happy belated one year, dear blog!

sister

I may not be a good sister and I may not always be in a good term with you

But to tell you the truth, I always love and care about you

Because we are FAMILY

Ego aku

Kadang-kadang perlu juga kita turunkan ego kita bila berhadapan dengan seseorang.

Dan aku kadang-kadang juga mempunyai ego yang sangat tinggi.

So deal with me. Thank you for your cooperation :)

Sigh

Because you ARE my sister, that's why I AM worried about you

Sh*t laa. I feel like killing that guy.

Sighhh~

Short but long day. Hmm

Today was supposed to go for a kenduri kahwin but unfortunately somethings happened and the plan might be cancelled.

Well, today start up quite um, normal. Got up from bed around 9, well musti la pagi tuh da subuh kan kan kan. Jgn igt aku x subuh lak. Pastu siap2 for the majlis kahwin. As usual, I'm the fastest among others bile tang nk siap2 neh hehe. Tah laa. Pelik jugak aku. So sape2 kawen ngan aku mmg best aa korang. Bini siap cepat haha. Okeh itu laen citer.

Pastu hop on the car which my sis yg drove it. Tgk my sis punye mood pagi ni not as smooth as it supposed to be so aku sbnr nya dpt agak aa nape. Well, girls kalu dah mood camtuh, kalu bukan sebab pms, mesti sebab lelaki. It's like a pattern jugak ah. And my guess was right. Memang sebab lelaki la. Let me just keep that to myself. Yg penting, I feel like stabbing that guy laa kan. Buat my sis camtu. Main2 kan perasaan dia. But still, my sis masih suka kat laki tu. Donno why la. Maybe sebab dah suka kot. Hmm...

Pastu td kat area jaya sana, lepas traffic light, tetibe la kan, keta kancil my sis kene langgar dari blakang. Kuat jugak ar. Kecut perut aku. An I turned around to see who was that pastu nmpk aa sorang pompuan bwk bmw. And my thought at that time was, "Oh my, a bmw kisses the kancil's a$$, haha~". I really thought that the kancil was hurt badly but at my surprised, mmg tade kemek ape aa. Tgk bmw tu pon rilek ok je. Kuat jugak ler kancil nie sbnr nye.

Pastu sebab nothing to settled up so biar je la that woman pegi. But still I feel quite worried sbb nmpk sgt time kakak aku not really in a stable emotion. And bile dah x stable tu, mula la nk bwk keta cam x best. Gosh, bape kali gak aa dia cam nk langgar keta dpn. Tapi diam je la kan coz it was her who drove the car, not me.

On the way ke rumah kenduri, tetibe la pulak kan my sis got called from her office. Power tripped pulak dah... she tried to called few of her office mates tp sume ade kenduri la, bla3. At last, my sis jugak kene mengalah pegi ke office. Oh btw, baru skrg aku nmpk btul2 the difference between an engineer dgn system administrator. Dgr jugak laa kakak aku citer ngan mates dia ckp yg power tripped pastu kakak aku kne la gi office dia balik sbb dia kaco the system skali. The one under my sister punye control adalah the system tp selagi masalah power tu tak selesai, she can't do anything. Sbb dia hanya la system admin. But still dia kene gi keje jugak sbb nk start balik system under dia tuh. And benda2 nie kind of mengacau siaran la jugak kan. Oh, btw, my sister keje kat rtm yek~

So sbb tu la, here I am, tgh wat blog, doing nothing, sbb today's plan was cancelled. Almost cancelled la sbb not sure ptg nie gi tak kenduri tuh. Tak kesah aa huhu. Kasi enjoy the rest of my day dgn... study ICO. eRKKKK~

Mengarot je banyak kat blog nie.

Let's stop blogging for a little while, ok?

Or maybe not

Let me think about that first

Opinion, please

Perlu ke aku devote myself to study back?

Perlu ke aku jadi nerd balik?

Only think that study is the only thing I have, lifelessly.

Opinion, pretty please.

Thanks

A girl can dream, can't she?

One way

One way to know the truth in one's heart is to ask them yourself. Andaian kadang-kadang boleh membawa kepada salah faham yang sangat besar. Dan salah faham besar boleh membawa kepada putusnya sebuah persahabatan. Binalah persahabatan yang penuh dengan kejujuran :)

My promise

I have promised my own self something before but today I think I have broke the promise. I really really wanted myself to be more strong to handle those things. Tp eventually, aku kalah jugak dekat diri sendiri.

So pasni mahu promise kat diri sendiri lagi sekali utk kuatkan hati. Be strong baby.

p/s: love your own self first before you want to love somebody else.

Ini satu penjelasan

Bila aku baca balik post sblm nie, aku rasa cam post tu bole lead ke salah paham lak. Tak perasan lak post tu aku buat cam lebih2 sket. Well, actually post tu hanya la utk sorang kawan nie jer. Kawan biasa digelar sahabat, nothing special ler. Kawan member gitu2 jer. Aku rase aku perlu buat post penjelasan sebab bile aku sendiri bace balik pon cam semacam jek post tuh haha~ Neway tujuan mmg nk minta maaf sebab aku rase aku cam da wat dia kecik ati. Tu jer.

I am sorry

Kau memang teman yang terlampau baik untuk disakiti. No matter what I did to you, kau tak pernah back off dari masih menjadi teman aku. Ikhlas aku cakap dari hati, aku mahu meminta maaf sebab aku rasa aku dah sakiti hati kau. Mungkin kau tak sedar, tapi aku sedar, apa aku buat selama ini telah menyebabkan kau rasa agak kecil hati dengan aku. Aku tahu kau terlampau baik, dan sememangnya aku rasa sangat bersalah sebab aku buat kau kecil hati tapi atas sebab tertentu, aku terpaksa buat begitu. Sekali lagi aku mahu meminta maaf atas sikap aku selama ini...

khas untuk seorang kawan aku yang namanya dirahsiakan...

p/s: aku rasa MUNGKIN dia takkan baca post ni tapi, aku still nak minta maaf. I really can't hurt his heart

I'm pissed

Rasa nk privatekan blog aku, boleh tak?

Current Mood: Pissed off!!

Back to school

Haih. Esok akan start la sem baru so will expect me to update the blog less often. B-O-R-I-N-G and sangat la M-A-L-A-S nk start sem baru. Dok lame sgt bermanja kat umah nie smpi ilang sudah mood mahu stadi oo. Adeh.

Just wanna wish kat sume yg bakal start sem baru nie gud luck and jgn malas2 sem depan. Kurangkan maen yek kawan2! (Peringatan pada diri sendiri jugak huk3~) Tingkatkan target utk next sem.

So yes, selamat kembali ke sekolah!

Mgt: Nightmare that turn outs to be a sweet dream~

Sapa yg tau aku sem lepas konpem tau camne feeling aku terhadap mgt. A very beautiful nightmare to me sampai aku rase trauma gile ah ngan mgt. Well, it first starts off ngan aku FAIL exam mgt aku, dengan hanye laa mendapat 34/100.

Tadi aku godek2 laa status aku kat facebook. Try carik balik status2 pasal mgt. Sume nye sgt depressed punye status. Haha~

Hati rase sgt sakit buat mini project MGT =( September 7 at 5:29pm

Mane nk stat dlu? Database, MGT or math? November 6 at 1:19pm

Tgh pikir strategi camne nk skor mgt esok. November 10 at 12:43pm

Azizul Hinnasir skor mgt snang je bce je bku mgt tu tu pn payah ke?alternatif ko rebus bku tu ko minum air die xyah bubuh gula..biar fresh camtu je..tu cara tradisional,cara baru ko byar aku psl markah ko xyah rsaw..haha November 10 at 1:14pm

Suhaila Roslan is having difficulties to remember ALL of the terms in MGT textbook. November 10 at 9:59pm

Yeay, do bole tolak buku mgt ke tepi~ :] November 11 at 1:32pm

And finally. Last status dari aku miahaha~!:

Mgt aku.. A- (O.o) ahaa~ 2 hours ago

Kira nye mmg aa aku depressed abes ngan mgt nie sbnr nye. Problematic tol ngan subjek neh. Da la arituh kne sembur kaw2 ngan HR time nk wat mini project. Pastuh kuiz sume tah ape2 aa aku wat. So, kesimpulannya aku mmg teramat laa bersyukur ngan result yg aku dpt even though teramat laa perit nk mengadap mgt the whole sem.

Hmm.. result sem ni as I expected gak aa. Yup, no dean's list this time but still aku sgt3 la bersyukur ngan pe yg aku dpt sbb hell yes, aku je tau camne aku perform sem ni. Allah still syg aku huhu. Alhamdulillah aku nk ucap kat cni~

p/s: OOP pon dpt A- despite aku slalu kutuk2 bro tareef and dgn habok pon tatau pe sgt pe yg aku wat time wat final. Praise to Allah =)

My new baby!

Tadi petang went to Tropicana City for the first time (yep first time) and situ obviously sgt boring sbb tade org. Tapi just went there utk bli tickets citer new moon. I don't really understand what's all the fuss about new moon but since my sis sume mahu pegi tgk and the ticket is just rm6, so tibai je laa kan haha~

Pastu tadi pergi amcorp mall. and got myself this.

Banana choc! Sedap2. Lagi murah dr secret recipe =D

And finally. Berjaya jugak beli this new baby. Lepas lame bertahan laa kan. Used the money yg still simpan dr zaman matrik x gne2 agi (haha!) and just tambah around rm200 dr duet ptptn and some of the money yg ayah aku bagi every week.

So meet up my new baby, G900 =D

Tade laa gempak pon but still bersyukur dgn ape yg ade hehe.

So, itu la ceritera saya pada hari ini. Time kaseh :D