Talking about age

Seriously, watching all these little kids getting older as time pass by, make me feel like I'm very old. Like very olddddd. Especially when I watch those high schooler kids. They seem so young, very young to me now. Well, as if I've already left my high school time like 10 years ago lah kan haha. Padahal only have left high school 5 years ago kot. 


Still, aku dah rasa macam tahap makcik2 dah sekarang haha. Makcik lah kot kan. Ada je kawan sekolah rendah yang dah kahwin beranak pinak kan. How time pass very fast. Sekarang dah bulan oktober kot. Few months lagi, will be reaching 23. Teringat pulak haritu baru borak dengan Zati, I brought up again that when we were young, we were like, always targeted 24 as our "boleh kahwin dah" time. Yelah kecik lagi time tu. Bukan kau pikir nak kumpul duit ke, beli kereta ke rumah ke hape ke. Takde nye pikir. So pikir umur 24 tu cam umur yang best je nak kahwin. Padahal bila dah besar ni pikir, hoii 24, baru je nak grad kot time tuh haha. To think the fact yeah, next year 23, that means, another one year to reach the already "boleh kahwin dah time". When I realized that fact, I was like.. woww. Those was my thought when I was like... 14? 15? 10 years already past. Boyfriend pun tak ada. Jauh lagi nak kahwin kannnn haha. 


Teringat jugak kecik2 dulu, bila pandang my sister reaching the 20s age, my thought at that time was like, eh, tua dah kakak aku. Cuz the age gap of us, my first sis and I, is like 7 years kot. So when she reached age 20, aku masih lagi baru puberty wahaha. 13 kot. So bila pandang kakak aku dah 20 tahun time tu, aku dok fikir, eh, tua dah kakak akuuuu haha. Then, now, bila fikir2 balik, aku dah 23. So yeah, guess what, aku rasa adik2 yang baru umur 13 sekarang mesti fikir, "Eh tua nya akak ni dah umur 22 tahuuuun!". Dushhh, amek kau haha. 


Tapi, now, aku dah takde lah fikir 20s tu tua. Since aku pun memang sekarang tengah 20s. No more teenagers. And when I look at my sister yang next year bakal mencecah umur 30 tahun, yea, 30 tahun, aku dah tak rasa beliau tua dah. Sebab I've already grown up kot. Sibuk label orang lain tua, kau tu pun sekali laa hahah. Umur meningkat, dah nampak biasa dah untuk aku.


Walau pun usia aku makin meningkat, the truth is, my face doesn't age with my body (hahaa. body aging lah sangat kan). Hari tu lah kan, waktu raya, ada sorang pakcik ni boleh cakap aku ni darjah 6. Haaaahh! Darjah 6 kottt. Rekod baru siot. Selama ni people always thought me as 16 ke, 17 ke. Paling muda pernah aku dapat 13 tahun. Never got any lower than that. Tapi pakcik tuh, beliau kata aku 12 tahun. Satu pujian, atau satu penghinaan? hahah. Probably he thought that I am an oversize 12 years old kid kot wahaha. 


Okay seriously, aku tak seronok sebenarnya when people labeled me with the budak sekolah rendah face. Seriously. Try to be in my shoes lah kan. Okay, one situation, bila aku dulu pernah pergi pejabat pos atas satu urusan. People, they really thought aku ni budak sekolah menengah lah kan. So they were like, mocking me up at time. Cakap kuat2 dengan aku, pastu gelakkan aku kuat2 secara beramai2. I was like, wtf lah kan. I'm not a high schooler anymore, but neither a high schooler should be treated like that, don't you think so? Respect lah weh, orang nak berurusan kot. Itu baru je satu. Banyak lagi aku dah encountered bila aku try berurusan rasmi. And I dislike that, very much. Aku suka bila orang respect aku, not to mock me up. So korang rasa best ke ada muka awet muda camni? Pikir ler balik. Dulu2 mungkin best lah. Tapi bila dah besar2 ni, I don't want people to look at me like a kid nemore. I want to have my right and be respected as an adult. They just don't have the right to treat me as if aku baru nak melangkah ke middle school lah kan. Dia nak kena tunggu aku beranak 5 kot baru nak respect aku as an adult.


Anyway, panjang gak lah aku rant kali ni. Walhal nak cerita pasal age je pun. Pape pun, sejajar dengan melangkah nya aku ke angka umur yang baru, hopefully pemikiran aku pun turut membesar sama. Eh, pemikiran membesar ke? haha. Lebih matang lah, mungkin. Tapi, tamau lah badan pun membesar mengikut umur hahah. Hopefully makin besar umur, makin kecik lah badan. Moga aku kurus cepat aminnn (tiba2 haha)