After more than 1 year

Rasa macam dah lama sangat tak blogging kat sini. Well obviously half of my life is spent at other social network services. Facebook lah, instagram and whatnot. Finally decided to spend more time on my humble blog. Since I have more time right now in hand haha. 

Sekarang ni dah lebih setahun aku kahwin. And this blog has seen the progress of me growing up starting from my uni life. Cuma lepas kahwin dah tak update. Busy with life after marriage of course haha. 

Just a simple update before I finally be in my full mode of blogging. Till next time guys ;)

Love of my life

Counting days. Finally insyaAllah the right man has arrived in my life. After waiting for so long. Hopefully the marriage will last forever and will be under Allah's blessing. 

SYARUL ASRAF MOHAMAT

I LOVE YOU

Counting days. 8/10/2016

Finally, you and me

:)

Time to take a break with life

Sometimes you just feel like taking a break from life. When you just feel like breaking free from everything. When you feel like life is suffocating. When you feel like you're getting out of place. Picking the pieces of me that keep on breaking apart. Sometimes life is just... tiring. Tired of everything. Tired of thinking. Tired of wondering. Tired of pulling and pushing. Time to take a break with life. 

Older is wiser?

Does being old makes you wiser? I'm not so sure about that. Well I used to think older person is a more wiser person. Well of course, growing up, I will always look up on people who are older than me. Always think that they're older so pretty much they have more knowledge than me.

But being an adult myself currently makes me rethink the thought that I used to hold on before. Being older does makes you wiser? Am not really sure about that. Makin lama hidup kat dunia ni makin aku rasa kurangnya ilmu kat dada. Makin aku rasa there's sooo much in this world that I just don't know yet.

Okay back to the point. Your old age does not makes you any wiser than a person who is younger than you but has more experience than you do. Take an example, you got your driving license pretty much late than your friend. You've been driving everday eversince you got your license but your friend just drive the car like once a week. Your friend got his/her license first but you yourself have more experience driving than your friend. Does owning a driving license longer than you makes your friend more expert than you? Experience beats everything. I might think I am wiser than a 20 years old girl. But if she has been experiencing far more difficulties and obstacles than me, does not makes me any wiser than her. 

Ahaa so much of talking because I feel useless each time a new day pass ahead of me. I don't think I am getting any wiser. Sometimes I just feel so lost in life that I just could not find the light. I could not determine what is the right path for me to follow. Pretty much I am currently living my life as it is, without a direction to guide me. I am approaching the 30s less than 5 years but I just still don't get the meaning of my life. I still don't know what is the purpose. I just.. live.

So here I am, hoping to be a bit wiser each day. Though I don't think I am leading to the right direction.

Oh forgot to say, hi blog! I miss you so much. Hehe. Toodles.

Parallel lines (You and I)

Ever heard of the parallel lines? This may sound a lil mathematical to some of you but somehow it means quite a thing to me

"Parallel lines have so much in common. It’s a shame they’ll never meet!"

You and I, well we have very much in common. We get along very well. We never really get bored of each other. Whatever we do, we can entertain each other. You'll listen to whatever I will say, showing interest no matter what. Yes, we get along very well. I know.

But somehow, you and I, me and you, are just like... the parallel lines. We have so much in common but yeah, in whatever point in this life, we shall never meet, at all. You and I are never meant to be with each other. You and I are just meant to be there, in this life, knowing each other, getting very easy with one another but no, there will be no point in this life where we will ever meet, ever...

Go on with your life. You got your life to live, and I got mine too. We shall never mess up with the life that we have built so far. You should go on with your path and I should go with mine.

Hoping that you will understand that you and I, are just the same as these parallel lines. 

"Parallel lines (we) have so much in common. It’s a shame they’ll (we'll) never meet!"

Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now

You're probably on your flight back to your home town

I need some shelter of my own protection baby

To be with myself and center, clarity

Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Don't cry

Don't cry

Don't cry

The path that I'm walking

I must go alone

I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Like the little school mate in the school yard

We'll play jacks and uno cards

I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine

Yes you can hold my hand if you want to

'Cause I want to hold yours too

We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home

It's getting late, dark outside

I need to be with myself and center, clarity

Peace, Serenity

La Da Da Da Da Da